[his head drops to rest against len's shoulder, face hidden as he tries to purposely keep his expression out of view. he's not getting it, and barry has no idea how to explain himself further. how to make len understand that, yes, he wants to do exactly as he asked. he wants to go back and pretend that things are how they used to be before he went back. but it'd all be a lie right now. he owes the other man too much to just dump everything on him later down the line.]

I'm not going anywhere until you tell me to leave. But I can't just-- You need to know who I am now before you let me back in.

[he needs to know what kind of person barry is now, because he's changed. and not for the better.]

I don't want you to regret taking me back.