[curling up against len's side-- it's easier. it means he doesn't have to look the other man in the eye when he answers. it also means he's free to enjoy the contact while it lasts. to settle in for the time being and try to relax a little. it'd be a task much easier to complete if they were talking about anything else though.]

I went back in time to save my mom, and I ended up creating a whole new timeline. But everything started going wrong and I had to-- Eobard Thawne, he-- I had to beg the man who killed my mom to go back in time and do it all over again.

[but that's only the start of it. it's also the one detail he hasn't shared with anybody else yet. but of all the people here, he knows that len will understand just how big of a deal that is. family matters.]

It was meant to fix everything. It should've put it all back to normal again. But now my best friend's brother is dead, and my other friend is a metahuman, and it's all my fault.

[and then there's savitar, and the dominators, and a whole slew of other issues that he hasn't even touched on yet. this is why he knows he doesn't deserve anything that len is offering him here.]

I ruined everyone's lives because I was selfish. And now I can't fix any of it.